How to begin how to begin. I mean what does one write; how does one write it. I just don’t know. Ugh this seemed so easy when mom suggested I continue to journal. I can’t do this. I can’t do this.

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Ok, Mom calls you Pandora, I’m going to call you Pandora. It’s taken a few days for me to think of how to do this. I don’t know if it’s right but I promised mom I would do this. So here goes nothing…

Journal entry 1.

Mom and Dad threw me an awesome Birthday party. Mom and dad are great about that: Celebrating birthdays. A lot of the family was there, ETHAN! was there.

The best part about my Birthday is that mom and dad got me a horse! I’ve spent years dreaming about horses and talking about horses every chance I got. My child pj’s were horses, and I have a picture of a unicorn above my bad. For years mom and dad said no but finally the Sim Gods finally answered my prayers.

I named her Santa Monica. She’s awesome. I’m going to do all the training myself.

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Journal entry 2.

I know I blew mom off when she tried to bring up the way I talk and look at Evan but I mean come on, I don’t want to talk to my mom about him. I’ve tried really hard not to get so giddy when he calls. But I’m a hopeless romantic so sue me!

I know mom and dad rant and rave about how they like Appaloosa better than Riverview but I think it’s because there’s nothing to do here, so we can’t get in trouble. I mean when I look back on pictures of my mom, uncle, aunt and brother growing up in Riverview they had arcade, bowling alley, slot machines. All kinds of cool stuff.

Here in Appaloosa all we got is the pool.

And I’m not going to lie, I hang out at the pool a lot and so do a lot of my cousins and other kids in town but come on!

And aside from the pool, we get the season festivals. That’s it. Can I again say boring. But let me tell you I look good with a tan! I told mom I should have been brown.

I guess this is why mom and dad felt they could go away for vacation and leave me and Rado behind. SCORE.

Cousin Sun and Vicinte who love next door were charged with keeping an eye on us. Not to mention mom threatened murder! if I hired a bartender.

I didn’t go wild when they left, but I did invite Ethan, River, and Ray over. I built a bonfire out by the horse training fields and put a rock radio out there so we could dance. Everyone was too chicken to drink from the keg. Myself included.

But a party isn’t a party unless something goes wrong! The fireplace in mom and dads room which is on autolight set the rug and table on fire. FML. The fire alarms went off; cousin Sun, Vicinte and little Toni came running over.

I’m sure cousin Vicinte was thinking of ways to use this situation to his advantage. He is a bit evil like that if you ask me.

Luckily I was able to put the fire out and beg Sun and Vicinte not to tell mom and dad.

Of course I had to agree to clean the house and cancel the maid mom had scheduled to come and clean up for the week, and Rado blackmailed me into reading him a bedtime story every night which Sun cosigned. Sometimes life just isn’t fair.

However mom and dad got back, the house was clean and I was never grounded. I can only assume Sun kept her end of the bargain because I definitely kept mine.

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Journal entry 3.

I know I said I wasn’t going to fight River over Ethan and to be honest we technically haven’t “faught” however one could say battle lines have been drawn.

I cannot help that every time I see him my heart beats faster, or I can’t catch my breath, and my speech becomes garbled. I’ve tried to keep things “just friends.” I do believe the correct word is Platonic (take that English 1 teacher).

But things changed one day at the library. I was minding my own business browsing through the stacks when Ethan approached me. And per usual I became nervous, couldn’t talk, and basically made a fool of myself.

And before I knew it..I kissed him. It was completely spontaneous a heat of the moment type thing.

And dare I say he wasn’t mad!

However I’m now confused. Where does this leave us? I like him and River likes him. Things could go very wrong.